“I keep remembering one of my Guru’s teaching about happiness. She says that people universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you are fortunate enough. But that’s not how happiness works.
Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it and sometime even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it. ……All the sorrow and trouble of his world is caused by unhappy people. Not only in the big global Hitler-‘n’ Stalin picture, but also on the smaller personal level. Even in my own life, I can see exactly where my episodes of unhappiness have brought suffering of distress or (at the very least) inconvenience for those around me. The search for contentment is. Therefore, not merely for a self preserving and self benefiting act, but also as a generous gift to the world. Clearing out all your misery gets you out of the way. You cease to be an obstacle, not only to yourself but to anyone else. Only then are you free to serve and enjoy other people”

Eat, Pray Love By Elizabeth Gilbert P.260

My journey to find real deep happiness started long time ago. It seems like I have been looking for the right balance all my life. A very significant time in my life was when I was 16 and everything I thought the world was, collapsed. My whole world and my perspective about life changed forever. I was in the middle of my parents divorce, and I got hurt that my heart was bleeding. At that time I learned to put emotional walls to block any attempt, from anyone including myself, to get hurt again. Building those walls was quite natural, if I may call it this way, but removing them is a totally different game.

My journey for happiness is not around the world, but it definitely around the United States. Through seminars, meeting wonderful people, experiencing love in the deepest places of my heart, I learn to see my walls. I learned to understand them and most important, to understand how those decisions about love and happiness are controlling my life today as a person, wife, mother and a friend.

My search for happiness is still happening, I fight for it, I strive for it and I know that I will find it. What I am really looking for is the love for myself, because without it, as Elizabeth Gilbert says, “only than you are free to serve and enjoy other people”. I know that I will find this deep love and acceptance that I am so much looking for.