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Today, I was playing god. I never thought how hard it would be , until I had to make a decision about my beloved dog, Arik.
Arik has been with us since he was 5 months. An energetic Lab that is always on the look for food, got to be 14 and 3 months. In the last year, Arik was having hard time getting up and walking, but he was doing fine with all kinds of pills. In the last few months, it became clear that it gets harder and harder for him to get up, even when he needed to go potty.
It was hard watching him, knowing he is not able to do what he loved doing – snicking out of the house when the door was open and look for food in garbage cans 😉
Few weeks ago, I was about to let him go but I couldn’t do it. My good and dear friend Lisbeth convinced me that it is not time. I listen to my heart , my husband, kids and Lisbeth, with the help of Arik’s wonderful Vet, Dr. Jennifer Martin, we decided to wait.
Last week, as we were sitting at night, it became clear that the time is almost here. Arik had developed some lung problem, and it was hard for him to breathe after a very short walk, or even going outside to potty. We knew we have to make a decision about his quality of life.
For a long time throughout this process, I was thinking about me, the family – how we would feel, how is it going to be without him. I couldn’t do it, I could not let go.
In the last few days I realized that it’s not about me, it’s about Arik and his life. I read some articles and got to understand that this is no life for him. He can not do what he love doing.
Today, with a lot of tears ( A LOT OF TEARS), we let Arik go.
Our wonderful vet made it so peaceful, Aviv and I held Arik throughout the process. I still cry, and I think I will cry for few more days. I once learned from a very wise women, that tears melt the ice around our heart, it’s a healing process. I love to cry, I need to cry, I feel better after I cry.
I will miss Arik so much. I will miss his beautiful face, his smooth ears, his snoring at night, his welcoming tail, his spirit. I will miss him, but I know that I served him by letting him go. It is hard, it is so hard, I canstill feel the pain in my body as I am writing these words.
I will miss him, I already am, Aviv and the kids will miss him, Tuvia our cat is already looking for him.
I loved my dog, and he loved me, in a way that only dogs know.
Last, I found this poem yesterday as I was reading about ‘how to know when it is time’, I think it is beautiful.
If it should be that I grow frail and weak, and pain should keep me from my sleep
Then you must do what must be done, for this the last battle can’t be won
You will be sad – I understand, don’t let your grief then stay your hand
For this day, more than the rest, your love and friendship stand the the test
We’ve had so many happy years, what is to come – can have no fears
You’d not want me to suffer, so, when the time comes, please let me go
Take me where my needs they’ll tend, only stay with me until the end
And hold me firm and speak to me, until my eyes no longer see
I know in time
you too will see, it is a kindness you do for me
Although my tail its last has waved, from pain and suffering I’ve been saved
Don’t grieve that is should be you, who has to decide this thing to do
We’ve been so close through all these years, don’t let your heart hold any tears
Smile, for we’ve been together for awhile.
Hug your dog today, embrace its love and cherish it. It is the best gift you can give them and yourself.
Hugs, Relli
Just found it on the site below and loved it –
MOM’S
Mom’s are caring
Mom’s are direction
Mom’s are our mentors
Mom’s laugh because they love
Mom’s know without being told
Mom’s hear without even listening
Mom’s cry in the quiet of their hearts
Mom’s sigh without loosing their smile
Mom’s do not always say, but they certainly always see
Mom’s very being is the opening to our doorway to life
Mom’s feel us even when we do not feel ourselves
Mom’s even at their worse are still our mom’s
Mom’s are the true meaning of unconditional
Mom’s are angels without wings
Mom’s are why Dad’s exist
Mom’s are daughters too
Enjoy, Relli
Take
few min to watch this video to understand a bit about the new social world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lFZ0z5Fm-Ng
My take on it – You need to use it wisely, know how to help people using these new tools. They are tools, not people, let’s not forget it. You still need to meet people creating relationships.
Love to hear your comments, let me know!
Relli
Looks like it’s true – this guy is giving away this cool new book for charity. Grab a copy http://tinyurl.com/23nwphq
I got mine!
Relli
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